Monday, January 9, 2012

Beholding you!



The waves breaking on the ageless rocks - splintering pearls, drops of sun;
The breeze unsettling the leaves - carrying in its bosom, the symphony of the ocean!
The azure sky fathomless, bright- a silent witness, lost in its own delight!
As I behold it all, soak in the sight divine,
I remember you - your roaring presence, your shimmering might!


I remember waiting for you: my heart expectant, my soul thirsty-
To hold you with my eyes - a glimpse of divine majesty!
The moments were long, the yearning intense!
What sadhana did I do before? What sacrifice? What penance?
That you have chosen to shower on me - the unbounded Grace of your effulgent Presence?

When suddenly the air stirred, a wave of exhilaration filled all space-
From afar I saw you  gliding in. All of creation stood in awe, in raptures and dazed!
O what beauty! What magical mystery!
All of nature danced in joy. But I forgot to breathe – as if in a spell!
My heart beating in wild trepidation- all thoughts dissolved, all I wanted was your Presence to hail!

You came nearer. My heart skipped a beat!
I tried to gather myself - when you come I have to greet!
This was the moment for which I have waited all my life, I have prepared night and day!
The doubts, the petitions, the prayers, which for long plagued my heart- all melted away!
Now at last the moment has come. But I find I have nothing to say!

As you came and stood before - your eyes fell on me!
It filled my being with bliss ineffable - in those eyes did I glimpse eternity?
Your face shone with the splendor of a thousand sun!
The effulgence blinded me not, but took my breath away!
I saw in it my beginning, my middle and my final day!

1 comment:

Revathi said...

firstly...wowow, brilliant post that!! :D

some thots that struck me real hard :D :D
u started with the a nature imagery.. u meant to describe Swami as nature n all encompassing n also representing all variations of moods, elements, aspects...it is a part of the whole n yet the part is so complete.. what is Nature and what is not? :) nothing is everything :)

so u started with nature n then u moved to the kulvant hall scene... i am not sure if u wanted to intersperse the next verses with other analogies or imagery... but u cldnt drift frm SKH n Swami making an entry.... i soooo loved the addiction there!! coz the addiction is not forced.. its sooo tempting n so compelling to just keep thinking abt Him... u try hard to understand n then u give up coz its easier to just feel His love n feel all that He does to ur entire being when u r in His presence :D no matter how hard u wld hv tried.. to compare n draw similes, to try to give a glimpse of THAT COMPLETE!! its probably only THAT COMPLETE DIVINE PRESENCE IN SKH that can try to do justice to the feeling of feeling Swami... probably once u hv done that n lived that, then seeing Him in other ways such as the ocean n the breeze n so on, is not so difficult.. it’s like u can sing the same bollywood n very filmy number to our Bhagawan and know that the song which otherwise might be romantic, fun, naughty, takes a beautiful divine dimension due to the Swami association :D its sooooo easy for us to fall in love with all those songs the instant we dedicate them to Him, n just see the flexibility He also offers :D sing any song n u can imagine Swami - a friend, a parent, anything, anyone :))))

so u couldnt drift ur scene in the poem away frm SKH n the actual real divine darshan... u dint go back to any similes after the first stanza and after u hit the second with SKH... hehehe.. n i can sooooooo relate to it too :D

yes, indeed "my beginning, my middle and my final day!" :D coz u r no different frm HIM! n He IS ur beginning n ur end, the days n events are just a pretext ;D

when I read the post, I was elated in that beautiful happy happy happy Divine feeling :)) the written text wld seem underplayed if u were to measure the thots in the mind :)) infact as i read i closed my eyes to live that moment of Darshan... i wished someone wld read ur poem out to me as i lived it within my mind...

super super super going!!!! extremely delighted to read this post!!